Leia Learns to Blog

Things I would like to blog about but don’t have the time:

1. My dad’s arrival last week
2. My latest toy: iPOD video (thanks daddy!)
3. My Un-lucky Weekend: getting stuck at an elevator, my friend’s eye-injury during a ball game, commotion at Robinson’s Place
4. My Sporty Weekend: company’s volleyball & baskeball tournament, badminton wanna-be, basketball with dad, billiards & bowling @ Island Cove
5. My Taekwondo Day: Taekwondo SEA Games @ Cuneta Astrodome… RP Team Rocks!!!

While reading Anne’s blog, I came across a post about Our Lady of Manaog and the power of prayers. I was so touched by the message she shared:

There may be times when we feel like all of our prayers are left
unanswered, but sooner or later we tend to realize that we get what’s
best for us at the very right time. So just have faith and do the right
things.

Though I don’t pray to any Saint in particular, I still believe in the power of prayers.  I believe that if I pray to the Lord sincerely and ever so faithfully, one day He will answer.

Six years ago, I used to pray for something. I wanted it sooo bad that I would pray for it everyday. There was even a time that I cried inside the UST Chapel. At that time I felt so betrayed, why can’t He just grant a simple wish??? I thought God didn’t want to grant my wish, so I just gave up. I learned to let go of the things I can never control. Recently, I think He answered my prayer. It may not matter now as much as it would matter 6yrs ago. But the important thing is He made me believe in the power of prayers again. I realized that it has been a long time since I last prayed to Him with much faith. And yes, it really uplifted my spirit… now I can look back at past experiences with a smile knowing that all my prayers were not wasted efforts.

*** thanks to http://www.markscollection.com/ for the photo. I hope it’s ok that I borrowed it. ***

I asked myself why I’m smiling while I was checking my email yesterday…

This morning I got this message from a dear friend:

the reason you smile is because you know for a fact on the other side of the spectrum I am smiling back at you.

Awww…. sweet isn’t? My friend, your message made me smile even more. I’m lucky to have lots of friends who gave me reason to smile everyday. No matter how hectic or boring my schedule,
I won’t last a day without smiling… or laughing.

"I’m broke again."

That’s what I said when I received my citibank billing statement last night whose due date is 2 days from now. Damn! This ain’t the first time it happened. 2 months ago, I can’t join my officemates in playing badminton because "I’m flat broke". My TL (not true love but Team Lead) even offered to pay for the badminton gig.. as he said “since you’re doing well with our job requests”. But I really had to pass.. maybe I want to punish myself.

I remember how I cursed my citibank credit card. It was my credit card’s fault! And for the 2nd time, IT consumed all that is left of my salary. I think it’s possessed. It has a mind of it’s own. Believe me it’s uncontrollable. If I remember things right, I already kept this tiny clear card at the bottom of my drawer together with “my unmentionables”. I don’t know how it found it’s way back into my wallet.

I remember a month ago, after my driving practice I was walking leisurely at the River Banks Mall in Marikina, when I saw a nice pair of shoes.  I knew I don’t have any cash.. but I really like the pair and they fit perfectly. When I opened my wallet, I saw this tiny black card – it was sparkling. I was hypnotized…all I could hear was >“swipe me.. swipe me.. swipe me”.

I swiped it once to pay for the pair of shoes. Then swiped it again after a few minutes when I saw another pair of shoes. And the swiping never ends. A few days after, I swiped it for the new badminton racket. I swiped it for the pair of Nike none-marking sole rubber shoes… for the pair of Guess jeans which is on sale… for Silver’s accessories… for the brand-new UPS.. for the Altec Lansing speakers I’ve been wanting to buy for so long… for my over-due SUN bills and the list could go on forever.

I hate you credit card.. I hate you! I don’t wanna see you anymore! Leave me alone. Hmppffff!

p.s.
I was ‘google-ing’ for an appropriate photo to attached here using ‘broke’ as keyword. I found this… "broke shields" ahahahahahhahahahah

"Relationships-of all kinds-are like sand held in your hand. Held
loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute
you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles
through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be
spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and
freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold
too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is
lost." - from http://en.thinkexist.com

I read this the first time from the book, Chicken Soup for Soul when I was in high school. I felt so down back then and I remember borrowing this book from my aunt. That was 1998, and I could say that my heart was healed after reading the book. Seven years later, I think I need to read that book again. I’m just gonna drop by at Powerbooks today to get a copy.

I’m a sucker for love stories… seen, read, or heard. Last friday, I was crying while watching the final episode of Sassy Girl Chunyang. I don’t know I just can’t help it. I envy the characters… I envy their passion. "In our next life, we would still be together". All I could do is sigh while I watched them exchange those lines.

Last night, I read this story posted on my friendster bulletin about a boy and a girl on their 7th anniversary. I don’t care if it’s cheesy… I envy them…how they stayed madly in-love for the last 7 years. Fiction or not, I envy them. Oh, how I wish life is this simple.

Going back to the relationship quote, it made me think..
am I holding on too tight? loosely? am I holding you back from your priorities?

I just had a bad dream last night. My eyes are all puffy when I woke up. It seemed that I was crying the whole 8 hours that I was asleep.